Well after talking via text messages for a couple of days, he asked if he could stop by my house to see me. I agreed and he came over. We sat in the living room watching tv. He kissed me that day. He was over about an hour and a half before he had to leave to help out a friend of his.
We went out for dinner and a movie. It was a great time and we did alot of talking. It's amazing just how easy he is to talk to. And amazing that I of all people can just sit there listening quietly while he talks. We all know what a talker I am. Lol.
Things continued on this way for awhile. We'd text. He'd come over and hang out. I came to care for him very much.
Then I got the email. Always an email. He explained that he wasn't ready for a relationship and the he just wanted to be friends. Of course I didn't allow him to see my real reaction and agreed that we could be friends.
Things continued pretty much along the same way it had been.
Then came the day that I got the text message that he had found someone. Someone he said he was in love with. He wanted to come over and talk to me in person and I allowed him too. He made me promise him that I would always be his friend because he wanted me in his life. What could I do but agree?
It didn't work out with the girl and he once more turned to me.
He has confessed that he cares very much for me. I care for him. However he won't make a move because he wonders what would happen if someone else came along for either of us.
Now we're in a limbo. I feel the conversation coming. I don't like this limbo. I need to come to a definition. Friends or something more. No more of this stuck in between.
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
The beginning of exploration.
I'll never forget the night when I first saw him though I cannot remember the exact date.
Karla and I had decided to go around the corner to Winn Dixie to pick up a few groceries that we were needing. We took Devon and Kara with us. We always have fun in the grocery store. I'm not sure why but it seems to be the place we always do our most talking. After we were through and had the van loaded we were slapped with a huge problem. The van wouldn't start. I did what I always do when there's car trouble. I pulled out my cell phone and called my stepdad, Kenny.
He showed up not much later with my mother and little sister. As we were all standing there talking a man walked out of the store and Mom and Brittany went all giggly and stupid. Apparently it was a man they knew from church and had decided would be a good match for me even though all the knew about him was his name. I couldn't really see him due to the fact that it was dark and the lights of the parking lot was spread rather far apart. After watching him walk across the entire parking lot he finally stepped under the lights and I got my first good look at him.
He was definitely my type physically. I like my guys tall and stocky looking. My mother and Brittany were all for me just walking up to him and introducing myself. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not the forward type of girl. I like for the guy to chase after me so I of course refused. He got into his truck and drove away.
After that they never really mentioned him again though I did see him at church. I know he didn't notice me because I honestly did what I could to avoid him. Mom, being the insane person that she is, decided that I had to meet a "friend" who was sitting on his side of the church one day and when we got over there the "friend" was his mom. His mom who was the sister of the woman who ran the Santa party where Kenny and I went to be Santa and his elf. Whom I needed to send pictures to from back at Christmas time. I nearly died right there.
After church I knew he was looking at me. Staring more like it. On his way to his truck he kept looking back over his shoulder at me and then stood there staring at me some more before he got into the truck and drove away. I pretended not to notice and had to kick Brittany to keep her from saying anything. I told her that staring at me wasn't going to do anything and he should say something next time.
A couple of days later I went on break at work and decided to check my email. There was an email from Facebook saying that he had added me and sent me a message. The message in short was basically saying he thought I was "gorgeous" and I replied by sending him my phone number. By the end of my break we were already texting back and forth.
And that was the beginning.
Karla and I had decided to go around the corner to Winn Dixie to pick up a few groceries that we were needing. We took Devon and Kara with us. We always have fun in the grocery store. I'm not sure why but it seems to be the place we always do our most talking. After we were through and had the van loaded we were slapped with a huge problem. The van wouldn't start. I did what I always do when there's car trouble. I pulled out my cell phone and called my stepdad, Kenny.
He showed up not much later with my mother and little sister. As we were all standing there talking a man walked out of the store and Mom and Brittany went all giggly and stupid. Apparently it was a man they knew from church and had decided would be a good match for me even though all the knew about him was his name. I couldn't really see him due to the fact that it was dark and the lights of the parking lot was spread rather far apart. After watching him walk across the entire parking lot he finally stepped under the lights and I got my first good look at him.
He was definitely my type physically. I like my guys tall and stocky looking. My mother and Brittany were all for me just walking up to him and introducing myself. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not the forward type of girl. I like for the guy to chase after me so I of course refused. He got into his truck and drove away.
After that they never really mentioned him again though I did see him at church. I know he didn't notice me because I honestly did what I could to avoid him. Mom, being the insane person that she is, decided that I had to meet a "friend" who was sitting on his side of the church one day and when we got over there the "friend" was his mom. His mom who was the sister of the woman who ran the Santa party where Kenny and I went to be Santa and his elf. Whom I needed to send pictures to from back at Christmas time. I nearly died right there.
After church I knew he was looking at me. Staring more like it. On his way to his truck he kept looking back over his shoulder at me and then stood there staring at me some more before he got into the truck and drove away. I pretended not to notice and had to kick Brittany to keep her from saying anything. I told her that staring at me wasn't going to do anything and he should say something next time.
A couple of days later I went on break at work and decided to check my email. There was an email from Facebook saying that he had added me and sent me a message. The message in short was basically saying he thought I was "gorgeous" and I replied by sending him my phone number. By the end of my break we were already texting back and forth.
And that was the beginning.
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